noun
noun: nemesis;
plural noun: nemeses
1.
1.
the
inescapable agent of someone's or something's downfall.
"the
balance beam was the team's nemesis, as two gymnasts fell from the
apparatus"
|
synonyms:
|
o a long-standing rival; an archenemy.
"will
Harry Potter finally defeat his nemesis, Voldemort?"
o a downfall caused by an inescapable agent.
"one
risks nemesis by uttering such words"
|
synonyms:
|
downfall, undoing, ruin, ruination, destruction, Waterloo More
|
o retributive justice.
plural
noun: Nemesis
"nemesis
is notoriously slow"
|
synonyms:
|
retribution, vengeance, punishment, just
deserts;
|
I have someone in my life at this time that I have decided
is my nemesis. I have no other explanation for how I feel about this
individual. There is a constant feeling that they are intentionally trying to
make things difficult. Granted I think that making things difficult is
basically what they do every day all day not just to me but in their dealings
with most people. My goal today is to release this person and this problem. It
is nothing I can control and the more I think about it the more power this
person has.
A few days ago I took an online test. It was an ARE YOU A
PSYCHOPATH? Test. As I took this test I
realized that this person I am allowing to control my feeling and thoughts and
is stressing me out IS a psychopath. They are practically a text book case. The
good news is that I am not; according to this online test I have only 12%
psychopath tendencies. The fact still remains that I am allowing this one
individual who is just not right, to be in charge of how I feel. I am paranoid
and edgy and worried about what they are saying about me. I am worried they will cause my undoing,
ruination, or downfall. Not that I have anything to fall from, it’s just that
once someone like this gets in your head, they have total control of your
thoughts and feelings. This is not my “normal” style and it’s bugging the heck
out of me!
I have to be ok with this individual roaming around my life.
I need to limit contact with them as best I can, stand in my truth and not
allow them to turn me into something I am not and most of all I must stop
worrying about them and their crazy ways because I am making myself sick.
Yesterday I remembered that when you do not like someone it
is generally because they are like you or remind you of things in yourself you
do not like. That little tidbit sent me off the deep end worrying about what I
could possibly have in common with my nemesis. We are both people with strong
opinions, we have a desire to be liked and as I trace my mind about other
possible commonalities I think my biggest worry is that they will be the reason
I lose a friend.
The truth is all I can do is let this story play out and not
add my own imagination to it. By constantly wondering and thinking about
details of this person’s perceived plan or plot my 12% psychopathic tendencies
rear their ugly head. I am better than that. I can take back control of my
thoughts and feelings. Perhaps I just take my need to control this situation
down a few notches and just take back my personal power and energy. This is
just a temporary issue and it will last as long as I allow it to. I should
probably stop being so dramatic too, using words like nemesis may be over the
top…or so I hope!
No comments:
Post a Comment